I couldn’t wait to start my university chapter. I’d packed my bags weeks prior to the move. I made friends through group chats before I even moved to the toon. Some even became by bestest mates. But I’d be lying if I said it was everything I expected my uni experience to be. It’s quite the opposite actually. I envisioned it to be like the tv show ‘Fresh Meat’, you know, when they all become housemates and stick with each other for their entire uni journey. I saw myself being a bit like Josie ; making loads of mistakes but having fun along the way. You all have breakfast at the same time and go to the local pub for a cheeky pint in the evenings. Haha omg I was so wrong about uni.
Fashion courses are a lot of work!
Like I said, uni wasn’t what I expected it to be. It’s actually hard being a fashion student and trying to balance a social life too. Something I freakin’ hate is when people look down on me as if i don’t do a ‘real course ‘ … oh okay then hun. It’s actually a lot of work. Not to blow my own horn here, but I’ve always been a high achiever… until uni. I just couldn’t get the social and work balance right. I remember I was sat in a lecture and my tutor said that if I wanted a first, I had to eat live and breath the course. Of course, like any student would do, I just sniggered and said ‘yeh right’. But she was completely right. I failed first year and had to resist a module during the summer and i genuinely felt like I’d failed. A high achiever like me failing ? It’s a massive reality check.
Mental health is a real thing
I’ve always been a happy person. Before university, I would do everything and anything without question, but uni has had a huge toll on my mental health. I went from being the happiest person in the world to the most depressed person in a matter of months. I just couldn’t recognise who I was anymore. I’d sit in my room and cry over the smallest things and I felt like I just wasn’t worth while. I tried to fill these voids with huge drinking benders and relationships. I thought it would just bring me some sort of happiness but trust me when I say that it only makes you feel more alone. I was always at counselling meeting with university or crying to my friends about how I felt. Of course, I couldn’t expect my friends to fully understand what’s going on in my head when I didn’t even understand it myself. I’ve lashed out at my closest friends because of my own emotions. I’ve been a complete bitch at times and that’s just not okay. I needed to deal with my emotions differently.
I had to start dealing with my deep routed hurt which I did by visiting home more often to be with family and speaking to people who are there to help. So many people are dealing with the same things so don’t keep it bottled up; just let it out. It did get a lot better once I was honest with myself about how I felt and although I’m still dealing with it, I can honestly say I’ve learnt so much about mental health and to not be so judgemental on others peoples emotions.
Relationships just ain’t worth it
I’ve had my fair share of boyfriends and guys I’ve seen during uni. Some have been really nice guys and I’m still friends with them to this day, but I promise you it’s not the end of the world when some are nasty to you. If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t have even been so bothered about being lonely if I didn’t have a boyfriend. Who actually has time for relationships at this age anyway? I’ve been in relationships that absolutely tore me down but I’ve been in some that have made me feel amazing. Honestly, they’re just not worth the heartache when you’ve already got so much going on in your life. Go have fun while your young because that’s what I want to do now that I’m a 21 year old single Pringle. Oh, and they don’t actually miss you at 3am in the morning… just saying.
Being a student is f*cking expensive. I can’t count how many times I couldn’t even afford a loaf of bread. It’s even more embarrassing when your card gets declined at Greggs. My parents couldn’t afford to give me monthly allowances but would help me out here and there when I needed it which has been so helpful at times. Most of my money went on soho trebles and swingers entry ( I miss u 80’s room) which isn’t the most responsible thing to do but we move. I live for the memories. But no joke, after 3 years, i still can’t pay rent on time and buy proper meals…. my adult life isn’t looking good for me. But seriously though it’s expensive! Who knew rent was so expensive? I ended up having to work a lot during my time at uni (all bar jobs ) but these mess with your sleep patterns. The first bar I worked at was Soho rooms and i’d finish at 3am … not bad I guess but it was horrendous. They made me sit in the window to draw guys in lol. Felt like a prozzie. My second job was a place called Holy Hobo and some nights id finish at 5am. I loved my job at hobo, I met some incredible people working here so the late nights weren’t that bad. You’re not really expected to get a job while you study full time but it sure as hell helps. Plus, it’s funny seeing your mates come in drunk trying to get you to sneak a cheeky trebs deal for 75p.. yeh oops I forgot to press the 0 button on the card machine. My bad.
Overall, my uni experience just has been completely insane. One thing I can say out of this is that I’ve made the most incredible memories with the most incredible people. I wouldn’t change the last few years for the world. Yeh uni is a huge stress and things happen but it made me so much stronger and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the experiences I’ve had. The city will always remind me of the incredible growing moments in my early life and I definitely have a lot to tell my grandkids one day. I’m gonna miss you Newcastle. LY❤️